A Bad Day

My life is being completely consumed by Kaitlyn's anxiety at the moment.

Today I got a call from her teacher. He said Kaitlyn had thrown up in the toilets at lunch time.

I asked if she was ok, if she looked sick. He said apart from being hot from running around she seemed fine.

Every time something like this happens I get scared, I wonder if she actually did throw up, I wonder if she's sick or stressed, I wonder if she succeeded in MAKING herself vomit, I wonder what's happened during the day to make her like this, I think back to the morning and if anything she said or did hinted at not wanting to be at school.
I wonder if this is just a 'normal kid' having a 'normal sick day.' I wonder if there's anything I could have done to prevent this.

But most of all I wonder if there's anything I can do now to make it better.

I wish I could find a pattern or find a trigger for her anxiety. Apart from the unpredictable-ness of her dad's work I can't figure out what has changed in the last few months that's caused such drastic changes. And then I wonder if all of this is just because we don't know when her daddy's going to be home, or what time he finishes work.
But then, he's always had a job with slightly unpredictable hours. I'll admit it's more unpredictable at the moment but he's always had changing rosters and some long weeks and some short weeks.

Seeing your child going through so much suffering and her not knowing why/how to deal with it is heartbreaking.

She's sleeping now, mainly so she can't see me sitting on the bed crying about what to do for her.

Anxiety sucks!