We have finished.
Weaning is over.
Isla hasn't had a breastfeed in 5 days.
Success!
I've never weaned a 100% breastfed baby before so it was harder than I imagined. I guess being sick and hiding in my room for 3 days helped because hubby took over and she couldn't get near me, and now she's got me back she knows the milks all gone.
I'm happy that it didn't take too long, we had some setbacks and some bad days but it wasn't dragged out over 3 long painful months or anything like that.
Today I got to dig out a pile of clothes I haven't worn in ages.
For the last 12 months I've brought tops based purely on whether or not I can get my boobs out of them-hubby has been very encouraging of this way of shopping ;-)
Today I'm wearing a bra with an actual underwire (hooray for uncomfy but much nicer bras again) a top with a high neckline and no maternity singlet, bra's, pants, NOTHING maternity!
Wow I feel like my own person again!
Ever since Isla was born I've just been so amazed at being able to feed her successfully (third time lucky right). I've enjoyed the ease of feeding her. I've enjoyed having a newborn around again and going through the baby stages.
But now I'm enjoying feeling like me again.
Over the last few years I've been pregnant 3 times, breastfed, been on and off steroids a few times and with all these things come the body changes, weight gain, weight loss, clothes are too big, too small, need new bras, maternity clothes etc etc.
At the moment I'm not on steroids and haven't been for months, my arthritis in my hip feels the best it ever has, I'm not pregnant or planning on ever being pregnant again and now I've just finished breastfeeding I feel like I've got my body back.
I've been exercising and enjoying having my body to myself.
I've been losing weight slowly and once again going through the 'I have no clothes to wear stage'
But let me tell you I'm soooo done with having to change my entire wardrobe every few months. I have boxes that literally say 'Emma's skinny clothes' 'Emma's maternity clothes' 'Emma's fat clothes' and depending on which stage I'm in those are the clothes I wear. I want so badly to just have ONE wardrobe, to be able to wear whatever clothes I want because I know they all fit me!
I've enjoyed every single one of my 391 days breastfeeding Isla and I've enjoyed having all 3 babies and i don't mind the changes they have made to my body. The arthritis and steroids I could do without and now that everything is getting back to normal I'm ready to work my ass off so I never have to take them again.
I'm also a little bit sad that Isla is growing up, Wednesday I breastfed my last baby for the last time. I was too sick to fully take in the moment but over the last month I've tried to truly treasure every single moment of feeding her. My goal since being a mum was to feed my baby's until they were 1, and now I've accomplished it. I'm done. Success at last.
Now it's time to get fit and enjoy having my own body back again.
Such a bittersweet moment. . .
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