First Quarter Is Over

Have you ever dreaded your birthday? Like turning that one year older will make a big difference? You will feel so much older? Maybe turning 30? Or 40? Or even 50 hit you like a tonne of bricks? 

Well for me it's turning 25!! I know right-sounds pathetic! 25 is still 'young' 

Saturday is my 25th birthday and for some reason I'm actually dreading it. 

It's like I'm no longer a 'young and cool' teenager, I'm past my early 20's and I'm smack bang in the middle of my 20's. 

Quarter. Life. Crisis. 

Wwaaaahhhhhh!!!!!! 

I suddenly feel old, and like I should be mature, and like I should have all these accomplishments and should be well travelled and well educated and have built my dream house and have fancy furniture and be well 'set up' and well....just done more. 

(Just a side note-WHY is there so much pressure to accomplish so much so young these days??? Anyway that's a whole other story.) 

Back to me feeling old...

Wwwwaaaahhhhhh!!!! I don't want to be 25. 

That feels way too grown up for me!! 
I still think of most 'adults' (because I'm definitely not one of them) as Mr or Mrs, I'm not up with calling older people by their first name. I feel weird asking 'adults' things about their personal life, like how many kids they have or what they do for a job or how are they REALLY going. 
Surely I'm too young to be speaking to 'adults' this way? 
Surely they see me as a fraud- 'she's not an adult, she's too young and immature' 

Well apparently not! Apparently I'm supposed to be mature and an 'adult' now! 

And yes I've accomplished a lot in my 25 years, I'm married, I have three beautiful kids, a crazy dog, we've lived in different towns, we have a house full of mismatched, second hand furniture and we have a very nice car. But by today's standards-we have 'accomplished' absolutely nothing worthwhile. 

Well dammit my kids are worthwhile thank you very much!! 

And while I may enjoy every single second (ok maybe not EVERY second) of being a mum, I still don't want to be 25!!!!! 

I'm getting old :-/ 

Help me! 

Quarter. Life. Crisis.